{"id":188,"date":"2018-10-23T01:22:27","date_gmt":"2018-10-22T22:22:27","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/hicyoktan.com\/?p=188"},"modified":"2026-11-12T01:23:55","modified_gmt":"2026-11-11T22:23:55","slug":"yasama-ugrasi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/hicyoktan.com\/?p=188","title":{"rendered":"YA\u015eAMA U\u011eRA\u015eI"},"content":{"rendered":"\n


*Ben hi\u00e7bir zaman d\u00fcnyay\u0131 umursamadan hayat\u0131n tad\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131karabilen rahat bir insan olamad\u0131m. O y\u00fcrek yok
bende. Her zaman ahlak duygusuna sahip bir insan sand\u0131m kendimi, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc ge\u00e7irdi\u011fim tatl\u0131 anlar -tam
deyimi bu-y\u00fcz\u00fcnden ortaya \u00e7\u0131kan sorunlar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne \u00fcst\u00fcne gidip onlara bir \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcm bulaca\u011f\u0131m yerde,
birtak\u0131m kuruntulara kapt\u0131rd\u0131m kendimi. Bir zamanlar bana bir dahi oldu\u011fum inanc\u0131n\u0131 veren estetik
etkenlerin yaratt\u0131\u011f\u0131 manevi korkudan duydu\u011fum rahatl\u0131\u011fa kendimi yeniden sokmak istemiyorum. B\u00f6yle
bir durumdan hen\u00fcz kurtulmu\u015f de\u011filim.
Manevi bak\u0131mdan b\u00f6yle bir \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcnt\u00fcye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce, maddi \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcnt\u00fcn\u00fcn de gerekti\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum ister
istemez. S\u00f6zgelimi, ayakkab\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131n altlar\u0131n\u0131n delik olmas\u0131 ne kadar uygun olurdu \u015fimdi!
Ancak b\u00f6yle a\u00e7\u0131klayabilirim i\u00e7imde duydu\u011fum intihar d\u00fcrt\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc. Ne zaman bir g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fckle ya da ac\u0131yla
kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fsam, hep intihar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeye yarg\u0131l\u0131 oldu\u011fumu biliyorum. Beni korkutan da bu: temel ilkem
intihar, ger\u00e7ekle\u015ftiremedi\u011fim, hi\u00e7bir zaman ger\u00e7ekle\u015ftiremeyece\u011fim, ama d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesi duyarl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 ok\u015fayan
intihar. (sf 41-42)<\/span><\/p>\n\n\n\n


*Kendini y\u0131kan ki\u015fi yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011fa dayanamaz. Ama s\u00fcrekli olarak, bir g\u00fcn, hi\u00e7 fark\u0131nda olmadan, bir \u015fey
yaratmak ya da her \u015feyi d\u00fczene koymak tutkusuna kap\u0131laca\u011f\u0131 korkusuyla ya\u015far. \u0130\u015fte o zaman durmadan
ac\u0131 \u00e7eker, belki de kendini bile \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcr. (sf 46)<\/span><\/p>\n\n\n\n


*Beyefendinin a\u00e7\u0131k \u015feylerden ho\u015fland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 se\u00e7kin be\u011fenisinden anl\u0131yorum. Ama beyefendi unutmas\u0131nlar ki,
a\u00e7\u0131k \u015feyler hemen hazmedilir ve i\u015ftah geri d\u00f6ner. Zor olan\u0131n \u00fczerine at\u0131lmak, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck lokmay\u0131 bulmaya
\u00e7abalamak, k\u0131sacas\u0131 umudu daha uzun s\u00fcre s\u00fcrd\u00fcrmek daha iyi olur. (sf 49)<\/span><\/p>\n\n\n\n


*Peki ama, b\u00f6yle \u015feyler herkesin ba\u015f\u0131na geliyorsa; nas\u0131l oluyor da, ya\u015fl\u0131lar ezilmi\u015f, ac\u0131 \u00e7ekmi\u015f, \u00e7\u0131ld\u0131rm\u0131\u015f
de\u011fil de, huzurlu kimseler olarak g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyorlar? Anla\u015f\u0131l\u0131r bir \u015fey varsa, o da \u00f6l\u00fclerin ni\u00e7in \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fckleridir.
\u0130\u00e7lerindeki b\u00fct\u00fcn o zehirle. (sf 50)<\/span><\/p>\n\n\n\n


*Bir kad\u0131n e\u011fer budala de\u011filse, eninde sonunda bir insan y\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131 ile kar\u015f\u0131la\u015f\u0131r ve onu kurtarmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r.
Kimi zaman da ba\u015far\u0131r bu i\u015fi. Ama bir kad\u0131n, e\u011fer budala de\u011filse, eninde sonunda ak\u0131ll\u0131, sa\u011fl\u0131kl\u0131 bir adam
bulup onu y\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131ya \u00e7evirir. Her zaman ba\u015far\u0131r bu i\u015fi. (sf 61)<\/span><\/p>\n\n\n\n


*\u0130ntihar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnen bir insan i\u00e7in en k\u00f6t\u00fc \u015fey kendisini \u00f6ld\u00fcrmesi de\u011fil, bunu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcp yapmamas\u0131d\u0131r.
\u0130ntihar d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesine -bir al\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131k haline gelen intihar d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesine- yol a\u00e7an manevi \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcnt\u00fc kadar
a\u015fa\u011f\u0131l\u0131k bir \u015fey yoktur. (sf 63)<\/span><\/p>\n\n\n\n


*As\u0131l b\u00fcy\u00fck ve korkun\u00e7 ger\u00e7ek \u015fu: hi\u00e7bir i\u015fe yaramaz ac\u0131 \u00e7ekmek. (sf 70)<\/span><\/p>\n\n\n\n


*\u0130nsan\u0131n \u00fclk\u00fclerine eri\u015fememesinden de ac\u0131 bir \u015fey vard\u0131r: onlar\u0131 ger\u00e7ekle\u015ftirmek olmak. (sf 79)<\/span><\/p>\n\n\n\n


*Binlerce ba\u015fka insan da \u00f6yle. Bu konuda bile bir ayr\u0131cal\u0131\u011f\u0131n oldu\u011funu sanarak \u00f6v\u00fcnme. Her zaman ‘garibin
biri’ydin, i\u015fin k\u00f6t\u00fcs\u00fc, bug\u00fcn de \u00f6ylesin. (sf 90)<\/span><\/p>\n\n\n\n


*Bir kez daha d\u00fcnyaya gelirsen, annene ba\u011fl\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n bile \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcl\u00fc olmal\u0131. Yoksa yitirmekle kal\u0131rs\u0131n. (sf 94)<\/span><\/p>\n\n\n\n


*\u0130nsan ili\u015fkilerini ticarette de ge\u00e7erli olan yasalar y\u00f6netir. \u0130yi s\u00f6zle\u015fmeler yapmak i\u00e7in, bir \u015feye ilgi duysan\u0131z
da duymasan\u0131z da g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fc\u015fte ilgi duymuyormu\u015f gibi davranmal\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z. (sf 110)<\/span><\/p>\n\n\n\n


*Ya\u015fama sanat\u0131, e\u011fer ya\u015famak i\u00e7in ba\u015fkalar\u0131na ac\u0131 \u00e7ektirmemiz gerekiyorsa (cinsel hayat\u0131m\u0131zda, i\u015f alan\u0131nda
ve \u00f6b\u00fcr u\u011fra\u015flar\u0131m\u0131zda oldu\u011fu gibi), rahat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 bozmadan her t\u00fcrl\u00fc a\u015fa\u011f\u0131l\u0131k oyunlar\u0131 oynayabilecek bir
ustal\u0131k elde etmekten ba\u015fka bir \u015fey de\u011fildir. B\u00f6yle do\u011fal bir yetenek bir insan\u0131n sahip olabilece\u011fi en \u00fcst\u00fcn
niteliktir. (sf 118)<\/span><\/p>\n\n\n\n


Cesare Pavese<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

*Ben hi\u00e7bir zaman d\u00fcnyay\u0131 umursamadan hayat\u0131n tad\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131karabilen rahat bir insan olamad\u0131m. O y\u00fcrek yokbende. Her zaman ahlak duygusuna sahip bir insan sand\u0131m kendimi, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc ge\u00e7irdi\u011fim tatl\u0131 anlar -tamdeyimi bu-y\u00fcz\u00fcnden ortaya \u00e7\u0131kan sorunlar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne \u00fcst\u00fcne gidip onlara bir \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcm bulaca\u011f\u0131m yerde,birtak\u0131m kuruntulara kapt\u0131rd\u0131m kendimi. Bir zamanlar bana bir dahi oldu\u011fum inanc\u0131n\u0131 veren estetiketkenlerin yaratt\u0131\u011f\u0131 manevi […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_hic_yazilis_tarihi":"2018-10-23","footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"yazar":[],"class_list":["post-188","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-genel"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/hicyoktan.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/188","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/hicyoktan.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/hicyoktan.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/hicyoktan.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/hicyoktan.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=188"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/hicyoktan.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/188\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":189,"href":"https:\/\/hicyoktan.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/188\/revisions\/189"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/hicyoktan.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=188"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/hicyoktan.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=188"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/hicyoktan.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=188"},{"taxonomy":"yazar","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/hicyoktan.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fyazar&post=188"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}